Veljanov's "Secrets ..." - Now and forever

Edit:
Aus aktuellem Anlass: Ich kenne weder die Künstler, die Manager noch die Moderatoren der Band Deine Lakaien. Ich habe aus Interesse das letzte Jahr mit ausführlichen Recherchen über sie verbracht
und versucht, ein Gefühl für ihren Charakter zu entwickeln .... aber dann, ich mache soetwas regelmäßig für historische Persönlichkeiten, was diese Herren ja nun wieder nicht sind ... sorry, guys.

As with regards to Mr Veljanov, I still believe he allowed quite a bit of himself to show in his first solo album.


Here are some interview-extracts of how he felt at the time:

"At the end of 1996 I found myself at home, having been on tour 200 out of 365 days, feeling empty and burned out, wondering what all of this was about."

"Then, I began to make a little music all by myself with no plans or pressure"

(The last statements are rough and ready translations by myself, taken from this interview:
 http://www.grenzwellen.de/gw_redaktion/modules/news/article.php?storyid=83)

"In the mid-nineties it (stardom) was almost unbearable for me." 

"Ironically, the "Kasmodiah", our perhaps biggest success, was the one CD I didn't want to do at all." (radio interview, 2005)


   

I believe that he put many of his sentiments about himself as a singer into this song. Even if he was always very careful of guarding himself, he couldn't keep the bitterness out of it.
Mostly, I see it in these lines:

...
Good and gentle
like the shyness
and suddenly dazzled
by the rays of a golden life

I am your slave

and your victim

I am in a mire

selling myself

your games surround me

in the gloomy future

oh, what will you have made of me?

I am loyal, and forever
know my duty
must leave this place

take with me only my heart

just to save it

to save it from your love.